My baby girl is 9 months old today! I really can't believe it's been 9 months since we first met her. It seemed like the 9 months before that were spent in denial, not that I didn't want to have another baby (I did!), I just didn't expect it to happen so quickly and I had a hard time wrapping my head around how our family (and our lives) would change once our family of 3 became a family of 4. I don't think reality hit me until after we brought Ainsley home from the hospital and settled into our routine. When I was pregnant, I struggled with guilt. It's a pretty weird thing actually, to feel guilty about being pregnant. I had such a great connection with Andrew and we had a pretty good thing going and I was nervous about something (or someone) changing that. I was also nervous about how becoming a big brother at such a young age (he was 18 months when Ainsley was born) would change him. He was a Mama's boy - very affectionate and enjoyed sitting on my lap to read a book, play with a toy or work on a puzzle - and I was afraid that my having to put Ainsley first sometimes would make Andrew more distant or that he would be resentful of me or her. I'm very happy that, although it's been a juggling act at some points, he's still a Mama's boy. :-) He's still not as enamored with his baby sister as we are, but he's coming around slowly.
It's been so much fun to discover Ainsley's personality over the past 9 months, and watch her discover the world. She is such a busy baby. Jim and I joke that she has ADD, but I think we both think it may actually be a real possibility. The girl does not stop moving except when she finally gives in and falls asleep. She fights sleep with every ounce of energy she can muster and I think she does that because she doesn't want to miss anything. Little does she know that we are just not that interesting and by taking a nap she's only missing Mommy sip coffee and fold laundry while watching House Hunters International. As I type this, she is sitting in her crib peaking over the bumper and cracking herself up. She's always smiling and wide-eyed and wants to be in the center of all the action. She's going to be social, ambitious and stubborn! She's also really sweet and patient, but she'll let us know when she's had enough. Ainsley is also the loudest one of us. Jim, Andrew and I are all pretty reserved and mellow, but Ainsley is way more out-spoken, enthusiastic and animated than we are! It's amazing that at only 9 months, I can know this child so well yet have so much more to learn. All I know that each moment and each discovery has been, and will continue to be, a blessing.
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